Saturday, June 28, 2008

Alone With My Scary Thoughts

Like I said in a previous post, I love to walk. Not only is it good for my body, but it's also good therapy. It gives me a chance to think over things going on in my life. As you know, I love to research everything especially infertility. I've been reading about health risks included with infertility (besides not being able to conceive) lately. I found this and it is a little scary. For women who haven't had babies, the risk for ovarian cancer skyrockets. Then I found this which states that there could be a connection between ovarian cancer and ovulation inducing drugs, i.e. clomid. The evidence for this is inconclusive, but the thought is still scary. So, on my walks, I think about my infertility and now about the health risks associated with it, mainly ovarian cancer. I am a believer of not crossing bridges that I haven't come to, but I do believe in being informed. So the thought is still there in the back of my mind tormenting me and my walks from time to time. I don't know whether or not I will have ovarian cancer at a later age. I'm trying my hardest to get pregnant and reduce the chance, but if I don't my chances do go up. I am trying so hard to reduce my chances for other diseases by being healthier, but for this one thing I can't do anything about it. And the chances are still there, are still higher, and I have to accept the fact that I may not have biological children and I may get ovarian cancer. But, I also may be smashed by a piano falling from the sky so who knows what is going to happen.

Stay healthy Blogger Buddies.


The Family of N said...

Your piano idea is certainly one perspective.

Miss Tori said...


A week or so ago I added your blog to my google reader, and at first I could read them just fine. Then when you changed the layout of your blog, I could see you had a new post, but it would show it. I finally figured out why tonight. It brings over your writing in whatever color you typed it in. The reason I couldn't see it was because you use white font! So now I just have to highlight it and there it is. Voila!

In case anyone else asks why they can't see your posts using google reader, now you know!

Have a great weekend!


Joy said...

Lisa - I have the same thoughts run through my head while I am on the treadmill. This is not fair, but I know that this is a journey that I am willing to take for a little one of my own.

Joy Lin said...

First, an intro. I'm Chelley's friend from work, Joy Lin. Nice to meet you.

Second. I'm THE worst about thinking things to death. And for me, that usually leads to fear if I'm not on guard. So from one thinker to another...Do not fear. Trust in the Lord, for He is good.

Praying for you. (And I really am.)