34 weeks. 42 days until my due date. Breathe in. Breathe out. Time is flying by and I almost want it to slow down. There are so many things up in the air about our life right now. I don't know how we are going to make all these big decisions (like about where to live!) during this time. I also have started thinking about whether I really am going to be a good mother or not. I thought about this before we pursued treatments to get pregnant, but it didn't really hit me as hard as it needed to. There are so many aspects that I need to work on in my life. How am I going to be a good example for this little person. How am I going to make sure that she makes it to heaven along with Russ and myself? What and enormous responsibility. I know I'm ready to take this step. It's just a very big step and I so want to be the best mother I can possibly be.
Weight gain: 19 pounds.I have started having a few new pregnancy symptoms. I blogged yesterday about my emerging stretchmarks and belly button so I won't bore you with that. I have been having an increasingly difficult time sleeping. I have to get up to use the restroom about four times a night and I just can't seem to stay in one position for too long. Also, I have had the worst drooling issues! I've never been the most beautiful sleeper, but I've never woken up in an enormous puddle of my own drool...or when I snuggle with Russ and put my head on his chest, I wake up because I drool all over him. It is a big problem...hilarious, but a problem. Another thing, I have become the most clumsy person...which is quite evident by the salsa I just dripped down my front. Or maybe I have always been clumsy, but I didn't have the belly for food particles to hit to notice? I guess all I can do is laugh about all of it!