Thursday, August 26, 2010

Yes, I am a preacher's wife, but....

It makes me very sad when people have unrealistic expectations of me for the simple fact that I am a preacher's wife. To add to it, I'm also a preacher's kid and a preacher's sister (though I've never had a problem being a preacher's sister).

Being in a preacher's family has it's upsides and it's downsides (more ups than downs...well, more important ups than downs anyway). One of the things that has always struck me as a downside is that we live in a proverbial "Glass Bowl." People are always watching us because we are the preacher's family. We are like animals at a zoo. Unfortunately, many people are not afraid to nitpick everything we do. Which leads me into the second downside and what this blog is really about: Some people have unrealistic expectations of preachers and their families.

One thing that I hate is that there are individuals that think I don't make mistakes. I do. A lot of them. Big ones. I'm 27 years old. I'm not perfect and I'm still gaining the wisdom of life. I love God. I love Jesus. I love the Bible. But, I'm a sinner. It's the cold, hard truth of the matter. Just last week I made an enormous foul-up. As a side-note: the quickest way to get rid of a friendship is to blog about the person. I have temptations just like everyone else. Just because I'm a preacher's kid/wife doesn't mean that I'm never swayed by temptations. One of the things I have to constantly keep in check is my temper. My personality is one that I fly off the handle about some...okay, okay *most* things. It is something that I work on daily. Another thing I have to work on is jealousy. I have a lot of anger and jealousy that stems from my infertility. I know I shouldn't have it. I know I need to completely work through it. I have been able to work through most of it, but sometimes anger or jealousy hit me out of the blue.

I do my best to be the best Christian that I can be. I do wish that people had a better understanding of who I am and what my blog is about. I don't mean to offend with my blogs. Some are written to make people think about things (such as ones about immunizations and parenting, but not necessarily to make people come to my side of the argument), but they aren't written to offend. Some of my blogs should never have been written. I get that. I have deleted many, many posts for that reason. Sometimes when I need an outlet (more than just talking with Russell), I go to my blog. It lets me write things down and, consequently, get them "off of my chest." When I write it helps me to let go of things that bother me.

In the end, I just want people to know that I'm not a perfect example. I am a preacher's wife and ,therefore, am an example, but I make mistakes and I sin just like everyone else. Please don't put me on a pedestal because of my husband's occupation. Please don't put me on a pedestal, period. I'm not automatically a better person because I am a preacher's wife. I wish it were that simple. As it is, I have to work on myself constantly just like the rest of the world.

There has only been one perfect Person in the world, and we crucified Him, literally and by our sins.


meisje said...

First, I read your blogs and I get what you are trying to get across. Sometimes people are just like that and take everything wrong and think everybody is againist them. Second, since I was 27 (that is just 3 years) I have mellowed alot and have had better impulse control. I just noticed that I don't fly off the handle as much as I used to. Hopefully as you work on it and as you age you will mellow too. Finally, there are always people that think that you are thinking that you are better than they are ,no matter where are and who you are. You just keep blogging and be yourself and don't apologize for how you feel. If people don't like it they shouldn't read your blog then. You are a good woman and should be treated as such flaws and all. Sorry this turned into a novel but I feel strong about people not being able to be themsevles especailly when they are good and genuine people.


Kriss said...

Hugs Lisa. I agree, keep blogging and just be yourself. I have once read anything and thought of you as "the preachers wife" just Lisa, mother of Chloe. The things is we are ALL sinners even those of us that think were seriously that was a joke. :) -kriss

Janet said...

I'm sorry that you are dealing with this! I agree with meisje....if people don't like your blog they don't have to read it. Hope things start to look up for you! I love your blog & don't want you to start "censoring" it. I love that you keep things real.