It makes me very sad when people have unrealistic expectations of me for the simple fact that I am a preacher's wife. To add to it, I'm also a preacher's kid and a preacher's sister (though I've never had a problem being a preacher's sister).
Being in a preacher's family has it's upsides and it's downsides (more ups than downs...well, more important ups than downs anyway). One of the things that has always struck me as a downside is that we live in a proverbial "Glass Bowl." People are always watching us because we are the preacher's family. We are like animals at a zoo. Unfortunately, many people are not afraid to nitpick everything we do. Which leads me into the second downside and what this blog is really about: Some people have unrealistic expectations of preachers and their families.
One thing that I hate is that there are individuals that think I don't make mistakes. I do. A lot of them. Big ones. I'm 27 years old. I'm not perfect and I'm still gaining the wisdom of life. I love God. I love Jesus. I love the Bible. But, I'm a sinner. It's the cold, hard truth of the matter. Just last week I made an enormous foul-up. As a side-note: the quickest way to get rid of a friendship is to blog about the person. I have temptations just like everyone else. Just because I'm a preacher's kid/wife doesn't mean that I'm never swayed by temptations. One of the things I have to constantly keep in check is my temper. My personality is one that I fly off the handle about some...okay, okay *most* things. It is something that I work on daily. Another thing I have to work on is jealousy. I have a lot of anger and jealousy that stems from my infertility. I know I shouldn't have it. I know I need to completely work through it. I have been able to work through most of it, but sometimes anger or jealousy hit me out of the blue.
I do my best to be the best Christian that I can be. I do wish that people had a better understanding of who I am and what my blog is about. I don't mean to offend with my blogs. Some are written to make people think about things (such as ones about immunizations and parenting, but not necessarily to make people come to my side of the argument), but they aren't written to offend. Some of my blogs should never have been written. I get that. I have deleted many, many posts for that reason. Sometimes when I need an outlet (more than just talking with Russell), I go to my blog. It lets me write things down and, consequently, get them "off of my chest." When I write it helps me to let go of things that bother me.
In the end, I just want people to know that I'm not a perfect example. I am a preacher's wife and ,therefore, am an example, but I make mistakes and I sin just like everyone else. Please don't put me on a pedestal because of my husband's occupation. Please don't put me on a pedestal, period. I'm not automatically a better person because I am a preacher's wife. I wish it were that simple. As it is, I have to work on myself constantly just like the rest of the world.
There has only been one perfect Person in the world, and we crucified Him, literally and by our sins.
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