Monday, July 7, 2008

A Little Blue and a Little Bitter

It is extremely difficult to keep the blues and bitterness at bay during infertility treatment. When you yearn for something so much and it seems to always be just out of reach, it wears on your soul. I have to constantly tell myself that God is in control and I need to trust Him and His will. But, I can't help but think: What if God is giving us the answer and we're not listening? How does one make that judgement? Does He want us to move on to adoption or does He want us to be patient for a biological baby a while longer or does He want us to live child-free? Each one is a possibility and I don't know how to discern the correct answer. I guess the only thing I can do is pray about it and study His word and try to live my life the way He tells me too. Will I ever know the correct answer to these life altering decisions? Probably not during my lifetime, but it is great consolation that He is watching over me and that my trust and faith lies in Him. So, I must strive to keep those blues and that bitterness away, no matter how difficult. I have to keep my thoughts centered on Him and He will help me through these tough times.

Look to Him Blogger Buddies.

4 comments:

I Believe in Miracles said...

Amen sister! Totally what I've been feeling lately.

Joy said...

Lisa - Your post really touched me. My husband and I are going through the same journey. I pray each night that I am living the path that God has chosen for me. I hope that I am open to his plan for me, but at times I wonder if I am.

Russ said...

Its a blessing to have such a grounded and Godly wife...

familyoftwo98 said...

I swear there was something in the water yesterday! Yours is the 3rd blog (mine included) where I asked those same questions!

I wish you much joy and success on your journey.