Was that confusing enough for you all? I am going to respond to another comment that I recieved in response to the earlier post about what a horrible, evil person I am. This will most likely be the last post about this because I don't want my blog to become a petty argument over the internet. I just want people to know where I'm coming from and who I am as a person.
"okay, so i'm going to anonymously comment on this post. ha. i just don't want a whole lot of new folks reading my semi-private blog. I will sign my name, though.she was pretty harsh, yes. I can see why you didn't appreciate her response. but, as a fellow christian who has followed your blog somewhat off and on (but missed that smoking post until you linked it today) I will add that your smoking post had some comments that showed a real lack of compassion that made me sad. that's all I'll say."
This Anonymous is correct. I didn't have a lot of compassion for the girl I posted about. She complained day in and day out about the precious life growing inside of her and refused to change her lifestyle for the good of her baby. I had to listen to this during a very difficult time in my own life. I was slowly coming to terms with my own infertility. It doesn't make it right that I had no compassion, but maybe it does shed some light on why I felt the way I did. I'm still mostly unsympathetic to her. I have a lot more sympathy for the baby who didn't have any kind of a chance or any kind of love shown to her until her death. I do feel bad for the mother who was so involved in herself and her own feelings that she couldn't come to love her baby. I know you could probably turn that around and say that I was too involved in myself and my problems at the time to have sympathy for her and you would be right. I think the whole situation was sad and I wish it would have been different.
One more thing before I close on this topic. I'm human. One thing I love about blogging is that I am completely real. If you know me in real life, I try to be completely real there, too. I show the good, the bad, and the ugly. I know there are areas in my life that I need to work on, compassion and sympathy for others being one of them. I relate exactly how I feel and if that offends someone, then so be it. I am prone to the same emotions and temptations as everyone else. I don't try to cover up anything because that would be a lie. If you don't like what I say or who I am as a person, you need to realize that I know I have a lot of growing to do. I am well aware of my personal flaws and I do strive to correct them. I am getting better about the compassion areas, but I am not going to cover up how I feel or felt at a particular time. It would be a lie and that isn't something I want to do in my blog or in my life. Life is way too short to not be real and to not share your true, deep down feelings. As I look back at these times in my life (while working with that girl, etc.), I do try to learn what I can from the situation. One thing I learned from her is that we all need to be very careful about what we complain about. One day it is there and the next it could be gone and we might not ever see it coming.
And that, my friends, is the end of my part of this discussion. Thanks for commenting on what I have said and thanks for reading about my life. Also, a big thanks to those who disagree with me in a respectful way and don't find it necessary to completely bash my head in about it.
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